Can you feel it in the air? A rebirthing. An awakening. Hibernation is over, and I feel like it’s really time to spread our wings.
Damn it feels good!
I LOVE this time of year. To be honest, I actually love each season for what it gives us. But there really is just something so deliciously bright and joy-filled about the first day of spring.
This year, it all feels incredibly timely. Today is the first day of Spring, it’s also a New Moon (the perfect time for new beginnings and new intentions), and it feels like a huge new chapter has just begun.
The past few weeks have been big. BIG. In fact, the entire winter has been big.
When we are already living on shaky ground, sometimes all it takes is one thing to leave you breathless, knocked down, and desperate for change. Old patterns have been fully exhausted. There needs to be a new way.
That’s pretty much where I found myself. Enough was finally enough.
I had to hitch up my big girl pants, get my hands dirty and become comfortable with the uncomfortable. It wasn’t pretty (or easy). But it was necessary.
I’ve done some pretty epic soul healing in the past few weeks (a big part of that has to do with some beautiful + emotional kinesiology sessions). I’ve been opened up in a way I actually never expected. My eyes have been opened. And life has suddenly become infinitely better.
Isn’t it funny how our bodies, minds and spirits hang on to… well, shit? And we carry it around like an unwelcome, but safe blanket. But it’s like a blanket made of a bad quality, itchy fabric. Sure it’s comforting for a while – but eventually that itch irritates more and more until it becomes painful and we just can’t do it anymore. I had to let go of my safety blanket.
Over the past few years, I think I’ve gradually been able to let go of a few surface layers. Enough to make me think I was moving forward, but never enough to create anything that lasted. It was always two steps forward, and three back. I have been a serial “toe dipper”.
But I believe that everything happens for a reason. Every bit of growth and every lesson, takes us to where we need to be. And if I hadn’t been on this “journey of growth” (did you vomit a little in your mouth then?!), then I wouldn’t have been able to fully heal this epically dense energy block. It is all as it should be.
“You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. So let them go, let go of them. I tie no weights to my ankles.”
― C. JoyBell C.
As I sat up from my kinesiologist’s table, I have never felt such freedom. A lightness. A sense of purity and love. “I feel like a new person”, I told her. “That’s because you’ve just let go of something that has been blocking you for most of your life”, she said.
“I feel like I’ve just shed a big, heavy layer of myself – and there’s now a whole new side of myself to connect with.” I said. And I really do feel that.
Is it all going to be perfect? Of course not. Life will continue to ebb and flow, and I will find my feet and peace with that. But I now know, that through it all – my foundation will be strong. I’ve got this. And for the first time, I really do believe that.
So here I am. Spring. A new chapter. Eyes filled with wonder, and a heart open, free and blissfully vulnerable.
I can only ever be who I am. I can only live in a way that is true for me. And that is ok. In fact, it is more than ok!
Am I going to be everybody’s cup of tea? Gosh no. But I accept that (finally!). And I no longer lose sleep over it. I am happy in my skin and happy with the person I am. I am grateful for where I have been, I am grateful for what is, and I am excited for what is to come. I feel a deep sense of peace. I am following my own path and allowing my own curiosities to guide me along the way. It feels right.
Let it go. Close the book. And write yourself a new one. Set a new intention. Break an old pattern once and for all.
I am worthy enough to live the life I deserve. To experience people, places and things that are aligned, abundant and down right beautiful.
You are worthy enough too.
Would you like to share your New Moon intention below? Are you feeling the magic of Spring? Or perhaps you’re entering the more reflective Autumn?
PHOTO BY MONIKA BERRY FROM MB CAPTURED.