A couple of months ago, I wrote a post about how I was quitting sugar… And quit I did. For 8 weeks, I didn’t touch a granule of the stuff – natural or otherwise. And I felt AMAZING.
But then I slipped. A bit of raw chocolate here. A couple of raw desserts there. A cheeky biscuit. Some homemade cake. A teaspoon of honey in my chai. I was back to craving something sweet after meals. And suddenly I felt like sugar wasn’t just something I had a bit of now and again, like before, but it was something that had come back into my life more prevelant than ever before.
I started to wonder how I could preach about being healthy, when I had just put something in my body that didn’t make me feel good…
You see, when I talk about food, and eating the type of food that works for you, I’m not talking about diets (I have a vlog coming up on this very topic, which I will record when my voice comes back!). I’m talking about filling your body with nourishing foods that make you feel amazing.
And freeing myself from sugar made me feel incredible. My skin cleared up, my energy increased, my stomach wasn’t bloated, and my mind felt clearer. As soon as I started eating it again – BAM! I felt dreadful. Moody, tired, bad skin, poor digestion.
You can read all the spiritual texts and do all the self development work in the world, but unless you’re fuelling your body with the nourishment it thrives on – you can’t fully shine.
When I started eating sugar again, my first instinct was to start attacking myself for giving up something that made me feel good. I started to feel guilty for “falling off the wagon”. But then I pulled myself up. I needed to forgive myself. Not for having a slip up, but for thinking that by having a slip up I was in the wrong. Because I didn’t do anything wrong.
Sure, I didn’t listen to my body, and while that may not really have been an act of self-care, forgiving myself for not doing what I thought I “should” be doing is the ultimate act of self-love.
Why do I feel like I need to write a post about my little slip? Because I came very close to being hard on myself for not sticking to my guns. For not walking my talk.
The reality is, while my relationship with food has healed, self-love is still a daily practice. And I want you to know that it’s ok to trip over every now and then.
We make mistakes. We have slip ups. We say we will do one thing, and sometimes we do another instead. It’s ok.
What’s not ok is judging yourself. Or feeling like you’ve let yourself down. Because you haven’t.
There was a big lesson in all of this for me… forgiveness is the key to freedom. Forgiving others is so powerful, but forgiving yourself? That is what creates a real shift.
Self-love will always be something that I need to work on daily. It’s a practice for all of us. When we have that awareness of our thoughts, we are able to stop ourselves before the nastiness sticks. We can then turn those thoughts around to something positive. For example, while I could have said to myself “You are a failure because you went back to eating sugar”, I instead said “I forgive myself, and am grateful for this lesson”. A simple flick of the switch – that’s when the real change starts to happen. See the light in the shadow.
Striving for perfection isn’t healthy. Set backs are ok. We fall, we get up and we dust ourselves off.
Cut yourself some slack, beautiful.
I’d love to hear from you – is there an area in your life where you need to forgive yourself? Is it time to go gently with yourself?
Love & Light,
PS. I feel I need to say, this isn’t anything to do with calorie counting – I hate all that stuff. This about foods which make me FEEL good. Sugar doesn’t (neither does gluten).